A young student in seminary preached a sermon on Romans 8:28: “We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose”(NRSV).
He waxed eloquently on how all our circumstances are God’s gifts; and, though we don’t understand, God has a reason for those circumstances and events. He made a compelling case for the sovereignty of God and the importance of simple trust.
The professor wasn’t impressed! “You may not have lived long enough to preach on that text,” Dr. Ferguson commented.
“I’m not sure you have suffered enough to proclaim with authenticity what Paul is saying,” he added.
“The man who wrote that endured shipwreck, beatings, imprisonment, rejection, and eventual execution,” the professor went on to say.
Then, he asked, “Are you saying to him, ‘just suck it up. God had it all planned for your good? Or, is Paul inviting us to join God’s efforts to bring good from bad circumstances?”
On July 5, 2002, Dr. Ferguson’s critique and my interpretation of Romans 8:28 were put to the test.
In May 2002 I underwent triple by-pass surgery to avoid a blockage in the left anterior descending artery (LAD) in the heart (the “widow maker”). The surgeon said that I should be back to full speed in ten to twelve weeks.
After a month of cardiac rehab, the cardiologist released me to travel to Lake Junaluska for further recuperation.
All was going well until the morning of July 5. I suddenly developed chest pains. I was having a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital. The cardiologist tried unsuccessfully to penetrate the blockage in the LAD. He then proceeded to put a stint in another area which relieved the pain.
I had survived the collapse of “the widow maker,” but the extent of the damage to the heart awaited further evaluation. It was an uncertain time, with the preferred future now in serious doubt.
After several tests, the results were in. Significant damage had been done to the heart muscle. A six month leave from my duties as the bishop in Mississippi followed. Those months were filled with lament, uncertainty, questioning, grief, searching, and discernment.
Will I be able to continue as an active bishop? Will I be disabled? Will I continue to have heart attacks and die? If I can’t continue in the position to which the church has called me, what will I do? Where is God in all this?
I never assumed that God caused or willed my heart attack, though I admit to some anger toward God for not preventing it! What is God’s will in these circumstances? What good can possibly come from my now damaged heart?
During the subsequent months of prayer, conversation with family, friends, and doctors, it became apparent that continuing beyond the quadrennium as an active bishop was untenable. But what will I do?
Thanks to Greg Jones, a friend and Dean of Duke Divinity School, a new door was opened. I was invited to be considered for a faculty position at Duke. Then came eight of the most fulfilling years of my life and ministry!
In 2009 came another life-changing blow! Linda was diagnosed with Frontotemperal Dementia, a progressive neuro-cognitive disease which would gradually rob her of independence and normal capacities. What were we to do?
Again, lament and discernment moved to the forefront and another vocational change was in order. I relinquished my cherished faculty position. We moved near our daughters and I became caregiver to my beloved wife and partner.
Where was God now? How can I fulfill my calling as an ordained clergy while being a care partner for Linda? One way was to be the best care partner possible. That meant learning as much as possible about her disease. Also, I was invited to teach part time at the Lutheran Seminary. Then, I was asked to be the chaplain in the memory care unit in the retirement community. A couple of friends and I developed a course entitled “Dementia through a Pastoral Theological Lens.”
The last seven years have been an intense period of growing in love, patience, and compassion for those with dementia and their families. Joy has deepened. Love has matured. The circle of relationships has been expanded to include more of the forgotten people. Trust in God has grown. Deep friendships have been formed.
Furthermore, I have been able to be with children and grandchildren in ways that would have been impossible had Linda’s disease not motivated us to move near them. Grace abounds! Life is good!
I now have a better understanding of Romans 8:28, “In all things, God is at work for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.” And, Dr. Ferguson’s comments now make more sense!
So many words at the tips of my fingers. At a young age a strong, and certain understanding of Romans 8:28, and now a living of that understanding. You chose to take God’s word for the beauty that it is, and live it. Your authenticity is a life-long lived experience. God bless you!
Oh, Bishop Curly, this warms my heart.
Thank you, Joyce! Fond memories!
You might be interested in knowing about a book I wrote in 2014, published by Inkwater Press (978-1-62901-003-8).
The title is Three Simple Truths: Experiencing Them in Our Lives. Chapter 2 is titled God Works for Good in Everything.
Thank you, bishop. You have always inspired me by your words and witness. You have done so again, today. Grace and peace from Clemson, SC.
Thank you for being so real. Greatly appreciate you!
Bishop, fabulous and meaningful words. See you in JCT next month.
Thank you, Ken! Amen, nothing teaches us to trust God like our own experiences! I look forward to reading each one of your “Shiftingmargins.”
I have yet to see an exceptions to this rule: there is no wisdom without pain. Dr. Furgeson is smiling at you; I think you certainly have earned the right to preach that sermon again. Although I think the words once said with youthful zeal might come with the gritted teeth that means we are preaching through waves of pain.
Paul does not say that all things are good, but that God can USE anything to “work for good.” The Cross is the supreme example of this. Thanks!